
Dear other twenty-three + year olds…
Do any of you have your life figured out? Are you content with your job, your relationship, your family life, with yourself? If you are, tell me your secret. But still read this, because most of us don’t have it all together.
Maybe we’re narcissistic, maybe we’re selfish. But we’re driven, ambitious, and self-aware. We’re always looking forward, because well, that’s what we’ve been taught to do. We learn a new skill, take on a new hobby, and say “okay what can I do next?”
We multi-task. We have too many extracurriculars. We push and push to become better. We expect more from ourselves.
I’d love to be writing this five years from now with a lot more wisdom and experience. I know that we never have all the answers. And I don’t ever want us to. But this is where I am today, and it’s okay. It’s okay to want everything and it’s okay to fall short of our own expectations and goals.
It’s okay to say “I have no idea,” when someone asks what you want to do in life. It’s taking me longer (a lot longer) than I like to figure it out, to get on my feet, but it’s okay. I’d rather spend time being lost and embracing the questions, than churning away my working hours in order to spend one or two hours every weekend doing what I love. We’re audacious enough to hope, if we’re sharp, hard-working, and strategic, that our passions can be our 9-5.
I’ve done my best the last few months to throw myself at the things I love. That’s the only way I know how to approach this. It’s going slowly, but I’m getting there. Sometimes we have to be stagnant or scale back for a bit so we can push ahead in the future.
We should want everything.
And we should want a cupcake to blow our socks clean off and out the back door.

Cross my heart these are the best cupcakes I’ve had or made. Credit for the recipe is completely and totally due to Jamie at My Baking Addiction.
These are exactly what cupcakes should be – soft and springy. Not crumbly. Not overcooked. The cake should be delicious all in it’s own right, and you should be tempted to have yet another one even if you’re stuffed. The lemon zest, lemon extract, and lemon sugar in the cake make you want to do nothing in life but eat. Then with the tangy lemon cream cheese frosting. Really, I could just move my sleeping bag into the kitchen and stay there forever.
P.S. I’m obviously taking a break from the regular schedule of Bread & Belgians. Not because I don’t like making bread or drinking Belgians, but my heart has been elsewhere the last few days. And as I noted in my last post, I couldn’t stop thinking about lemon cupcakes.

Lemon Cupcakes with Lemon Cream Cheese Frosting
(recipe from My Baking Addiction)
Cake
2 1/4 cups cake flour
1 Tablespoon baking powder
1/2 teaspoon salt
1 1/4 cup buttermilk
4 large egg whites
1 1/2 cup granulated sugar
zest from one lemon
8 Tablespoons unsalted butter, room temperature
1 teaspoon vanilla extract
1/2 teaspoon lemon extract (it’s worth the money)
yellow food coloring as needed
Italicized ingredients/measurements are those differing from the original recipe.
1. Mix together flour, baking powder, and salt in small mixing bowl. Beat eggs and milk in a separate bowl.
2. In medium-large bowl, rub lemon zest and sugar together until the sugar is a uniform pale yellow and feels damp. Add butter, vanilla extract, and lemon extract, and beat until smooth.
3. Add 1/3 flour mixture, beat well. Add 1/2 wet mixture, beat well. + 1/3 flour. Beat. +1/2 wet. Beat. +1/3 flour. Mix until just combined. Gently stir in food coloring until you reach your desired yellow. (I used about seven drops of liquid yellow)
4. Fill regular and mini cupcake liners 1/2-3/4 full. Bake regular cupcakes for 20-22 minutes, and mini cupcakes for 13-15 minutes at 350 degrees F. A toothpick inserted in the middle should come out clean. Let cool for five minutes in pan then remove to cool completely.
Cream cheese frosting
8 ounces cream cheese, softened
8 Tablespoons unsalted butter, room temperature
2 teaspoon vanilla extract
4 teaspoons lemon juice
zest from one lemon
a ton of powdered sugar
Use a 1 lb bag and add one cup at a time.
1. Cream butter and cream cheese together. Add vanilla extract, lemon juice, and lemon zest, and mix well.
2. Add powdered sugar one cup at a time until frosting is thick enough that when you make a swirl with your knife or spoon, the curl holds up for a few minutes. If you find that the frosting isn’t thick enough when you pipe or spread it, simply chill for about fifteen minutes and try again.
Cake and frosting made about 2 dozen full sized cupcakes, and about 4 dozen mini cupcakes.
Cakes can be stored at room temperature in an airtight container (they get sticky in plastic bags at room temp), or frozen for use later. Simply thaw at room temperature for one-two hours before needed. Since I only frosted a few at a time, I stored the remainder of my frosting in a large ziploc bag in the refrigerator and used as needed over the next few days. If you want to store your piping bag, wrap the tip in a damp paper towel, and put in an unsealed ziploc bag. That way you can simply spoon extra frosting in the bag when you get ready to have more.
